Shinji16’s Blog

It doesn’t help that the majority of my updates in life have been via Twitter, but hell, I’ve got a website and blog. I should use it.

As some of you know, I got let go from Cox a few months back. Bear in mind, I’ve no ill will towards them; I was simply too sick to show up on a regular basis, and they needed someone who could be there. They’ve said I’m more than welcome to re-apply to any positions and they wouldn’t hold anything against me. Honestly, they were amazing to work for, and they bent over backwards to try and keep me (things like changing my hours/shift and so on).

So, now I sit here with no job, bills still incoming, and I’m fighting off the side effects of unemployment like depression, apathy, and general lack of productivity. But you know what?

Fuck that.

I’ve recently gotten a whole bunch of new motivators and I’m riding them as hard as I can. Pentavision (the folks behind DJ Max and Technika) are having an open call for amateur musicians, and I’m working hard on a decent entry. I want to write for Thunderbolt but first I would like to be consistently writing a review a week just so I don’t apply and then not produce if accepted. Plus, I got an HD-PVR for Christmas, and once I work out decent voice recording, I’ll start doing video reviews and “Let’s Play” videos.

All in all, things are good. I just have a hard time believing that sometimes. However, to my friends and family, you’ve been amazing supporters through what is a difficult time. To Mom and Joe, the Weekend crew, and everyone else, thank you.

Let’s hope I manage to update this thing more often, and with shit worth reading.

Peace out.

Honestly, I cannot fucking wait for the holidays to end. Granted, I’m appreciative of the overtime (more money for working my regular hours? Sure!) and the gifts and spending time with family and so on… But fucking hell the amount of stress and pressure people put themselves under, it puts me under stress and pressure, and I find that mind boggling.

Anyways, I did some video recording tonight, I should have the videos up either tonight or tomorrow. I’m just hoping to make this a regular habit, and I’m also hoping to have Drummania videos up soon as well. Hooray WTF-IIDX!

My TV is still broken, thanks to Elwin Electronics being amazing. Their time confirmation voice mail was complete computer garble, and I left two voice mails with dispatch, neither returned. Plus the tech, when he did pre-call, stated he was running late and he’d heard from other customers that many other automated calls for the timeframe confirmation were also audio garbage. Good job guys.

Just remember: we’re at the last of the holidays, and January holiday postmortem will be upon. During which, take care, be safe, and remember that your loved

No, really, are you surprised? Anyways, I swear I will not be “that guy” talked about in XKCD. I’m writing reviews for a few iPhone apps, and have more content planned. Take care and be safe everyone…

So, things over the past few weeks things have felt in what I’ve been internally referring to as a freefall. I get to one day, and have the mentality of “Ok, tonight I just need to do this that and other thing, and then the next day I’ll be to relax” but then the evening of the next day hits, and time I do relax feels so… small. What’s really terrifying is that for the first time in the 2 years I’ve been at Cox, work is starting to feel like, well, work.

To better elaborate on the freefall bit, it’ll be Friday, and I’ll think “Ok, I have company over tonight, then church Sunday morning so Saturday is an early night, then Monday and Tuesday night I have to practice music for Tim, and then get up early Wednesday, and then all Wednesday afternoon and night I can relax.” So, I’m mentally pacing myself for several days in advance, but then once I get through my mini-gauntlet, the reprieve isn’t really feeling like one.

What’s been more disturbing for me is the fact that I keep coming back to the thought of that I’m 25, and technically a third of the way through my run on life, assuming I croak around 75. So, trying to math it up, am I a third of where I wanted to be, once all is said and done? I feel like I should have more money saved towards my arcade, and all the little petty spending that happens makes me horribly irresponsible, but then again, occasional albums on iTunes and so forth don’t seem like I’m blowing money recklessly.

I keep telling myself that I’m just getting older and trying to feel more responsible, but since when did that mean beating myself up over everything, in the hopes of just suddenly becoming a full adult? I often joke with friends that “I hope life never catches up with me”, in that one day I’ll look down, and suddenly see myself wearing a dress shirt and tie, look around and see I’m in a cube farm and working daytime hours. I’m currently up all night, having fun at work, and general living life like a college student or a gamer living with their parents, but instead I have my own home and possible career. What have I done wrong, if anything?

Musings about my life aside, things are “good”. Job is good, friends are good, no drama or anything to deal with… So why am I freaking out even more about my current place in

Long time, no updates. I know, this is a horrible habit of mine, but now that I’ve finally gotten a lot of things and shenanigans put behind me. Now, I’m hoping to get a few things tweaked with my Wordpress, but I can still post entries regardless. So, hopefully by the end of next week, I’ll have a few short reviews of some indie games that are out, and also post about things in general too.

Now, I will be talking about what’s going on in my life here from time to time, but the best way to keep up with me is on Twitter (user Shinji16). If you have a Facebook, I’m user Shinji16, but beware I do not check my Facebook at all; I simply have it linked to Twitter so any Tweets will update my status.

Take care, be safe, and looking forward to sharing my experiences with you.

Brendan

New site, thanks to WordPress. Also, huge technical difficulties, thanks to Wordpress. I’ll have this site up and running the way I want soon, but that also means me re-learning some php/html shenanigans first. Stay tuned…

This is my first post! Huzzah!